It's almost my birthday.
My personal New Year.
I've driven North and holed up to read, write, meditate and reflect on my past year, and to focus clear intentions on the new year, and to request blessings of the Lord and send my desires out into the Universe. Some of my readings are from my diary and journal entries over the last 20 years. Interesting to see where my head's been ...
Here's one entry dated January 23, 2000:
I'm a churchoholic. I need a twelve step recovery program to help me with my self-destructive urges to come to this church. If there was such a vehicle for corrective -behavior-modification for those who repeatedly get abused at their chosen place of worship yet and still continue to frequent that same said place ... I would immediately plop down my $525 for, I imagine, 12 sessions - figuring as how there would probably be 12 steps; unless they cover more than one step per session, which, for those of us who don't catch on too swiftly that would be defeatist; which is the whole point of coming to the program to begin with, remember?
I DON'T CATCH ON QUICK ENOUGH TO STOP DEFEATIST BEHAVIORS!! HELLLLLO?
Wow.
Bisous
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