Disappointed Desire

I had anticipated, upon coming down from my birthday high, that this blog entry would be all butterflies and rainbows.


For my birthday, my personal new year, I journeyed alone to a beautiful little place, physically and spiritually, determined to read, write, pray, meditate and reflect. It was a peaceful, beautiful time. I enjoyed a few spa treatments and really relaxed. I walked and gazed into shop windows on High Street and sipped green tea and felt truly ... high. The fact that the name of the street that I slept in and window-shopped on was actually High St. is a synchronicity.


You see, I'd anticipated this blog entry being about how wonderful synchronicities are and how I'd spotted them, but ... I won't. I'll have to write about synchronicities another day.


Today, I'm sad. I don't wish to offend anyone with my happiness, but I shouldn't have to apologize for it. Yet, because of my disappointed desire to have someone be happy for me, as I am happy for them, I suffer.


So today I'm reminded of what Buddha teaches:

~ You only suffer if you are attached to some thing, some action/non-action, some outcome or some person.

~ Unless we control the craziness of our unceasing desire, there is no way for us to gain tranquility and peace.

Bisous